I love the idea of personifying your inner demons Cry of Fear style. Simon's demons are twisted and

What would my demons look like? My addiction? My laziness?

I was a little more deliberate by succumbing to addiction today, on 3/19/2026. I experienced something interesting. I didn't really enjoy it. I hope this is a good sign of things to come. Maybe next time I feel this urge two weeks from now, I'll know the payoff won't be worth it.

After a few weeks of having no urges, I had a few days straght where I felt an intense desire to relapse. It began to feel as if it would be okay to do this, that I would feel good about it, and that afterwards there would be no problems. So I did it, on 4/12/2026. I don't feel good about it. In fact I didn't enjoy it much, once again. That feeling that it would be okay is very interesting to me.

I'm fucked so fucked

No I'll get through this and then never again.