I just finished replaying Cry of Fear. I havne't beaten it again since 2021 when I discovered it through pyrocynical's vid. Something about personifying your inner demons and running and fighting them is such a horrific way is oddly comforting. I want to make a game like it some day.

Life got me feeling like both these simons at once

My addiction won! I was doing so well for like 2 weeks and then it clawed its way back and held me for like a week. I just got a hold of myself today. I hope this means it's on its ddying breaths, and just won't go down without a bloody fight.

Can you tell me where Armand Christophe is hiding?

Ughh I really don't wanna worry about taxes... UPDATE: IM STARTING IM BRAVE

modarchive.org is awesome

YOU CAN LOVE AGAIN IF YOU TRY AGAIN

I just found my old Flipnotes. My hatena Id was id:cjd if you want to see for yourself! https://archive.sudomemo.net/user/5C00F620A0E8C2E5@DSi?page=1

cant stop comparing myself to real artists (in the discouraging way)

FUCK I JUST WISH I COULD MEET SOMEONE LIKE ME!!

I need to treat game dev like a second job. Gonna be working 60 hr weeks oh god this better be worth it.

We should not just set it on fire!

I am SICK and TIRED of falling for my stupid fucking addiction. It's not even like an addictive substance, it's that my brain has rewired itself to crave this thing even when

I hate that americans are being viewed less favorably. I think there are still many good americans who are trying their best to be good in a bad world, but they have to struggle so much that their good isnt noticed. So americans as a whole get defined by the bad, and I guess I dont blame the world for making that definition, I just wish they knew about the good. Feel so powerless. selfishly, speaking, IM an american, and that means many people hate ME just because of that. what can i even do?? i dont want to be hated!! And I dont want people to suffer because of other bad americans! I fucking WISH the government would stop their stupid fucking war and stupid fucking tariffs and stupid fucking bigotry and stupid fucking capitalism. But like Im just one guy who lives very far away from the government and is very very scared of dying. What the fuck can I do????? I guess I should start trying to convince my right-wing family to change their minds? I guess Ive just always been too afraid since Ive always been the black sheep and dont want to be pushed away even more. guess thats selfish right. what do i do...

I don't think I can allow myself to play games very much while my own game is incomplete. I seriously need to limit myself, because today I didn't limit myself and I spent all day gaming and feeling guilty about gaming. It took the fun out of it.

Feeling very powerless due to how society is (stfu i already know youre thinking of the we live in a society meme but just bear with me cuz society is seriously depressing). How did I avoid this feeling only a few years ago?